I have deleted my message centre and a burden has been lifted Unfortunately I've also missed all the interesting journal entries. But since I'm not on here enough for people to notice anyway, I'm not too worried about it.

I got a new car... pretty much the same as my last one except a little shittier (no cruise control or steering wheel tilt which I didn't realize when I bought it... annoying as hell but I'm getting used to it). It was only $8300 (about a thousand more when you add on all the other random fees and expenses) so I can't complain. The extra couple thousand I had from the insurance check have saved my life the past several weeks.

I've met a lovely subbie girl on collarme.com and have been emailing back and forth with her for a few weeks or months... I've lost track of time. I think this could actually amount to something... (a non-romantic, probably sexual D/s S/m relationship). Wish me lots of luck, I'll need it. This is probably my most serious and likely attempt at a D/s relationship, and my first attempt at being the Dominant half of that combo. Thus far it's going well and I'm learning how to be Dominant while still being myself and having a down-to-earth, realistic friendship.

I've been doing a lot of spiritual stuff lately. I won't go into it all here because unless I go into the details of my beliefs it won't make much sense and you'll probably get the wrong idea. I'm still a strong believer and science, psychology, evolution and other things that some of the lunatics are convinced are completely inaccurate. But all the spiritual stuff has helped give me some clarity, peace of mind, and a deeper meaning to life than agnosticism gave me. I'm sure my life is still a blip in the universe but if I can convince myself otherwise isn't that just as good as it really being otherwise? Believing is seeing